I’ve actually been having them fluttering around relentlessly in my little tummy ever since I found out I got the job.
Strange eh.
But the truth is, I never expected to get the job and given the very lengthly job description and duties, of which many I have never had experience doing, coupled the words of one of the interviewers saying “stress includes having to change the entire background colour of the banner for the next morning’s event”, make for the perfect concoction of jittery nerves and anxious thoughts.
Will I be able to meet their high standards?
Will I be able to do well the tasks I’ve been assigned to?
Will I be able to work well with my colleagues?
Sigh. My usual worry-wot self is appearing in full-force and I have a bad feeling it’ll be causing a less than restful sleep tonight and will last right up till I finally step foot into my new office at Marine Parade. That said, I still have to go down to the main office at Bras Basah first, to finish up all the necessary and final HR procedures and then make my way down to Marine Parade. By then I’d be grateful just to have made my wobbly legs take me all the way to my final destination (pun not intended…).
Yet with all this worrying, it got thinking.
When I’m afraid and anxious, the first person I turn to is God in prayer. Whether with my eyes closed or silently in my heart, its a natural reaction that always bring peace and calmness at the very moment I need it. I’m not saying it’s an immediate or sudden disappearance of all nervousness, but rather, the peace really does come at the right time, God’s time. Like how I started off the interview babbling like an idiot but slowly gained composure and spoke with confidence. Same goes for exams where I tend to scribble strange introductions, but manage to churn out decent and somewhatttttt intelligent paragraphs and finish my essay on time!
So then, how about those who don’t know the Lord Jesus as their personal Saviour? Who do they turn to?
Their close friends, a spouse, boyfriend, girlfriend, parents… sure these people are vital in giving support and advice, but they do not know the future unlike God. He who has already gone before us, knows exactly what is going to happen and only has our best interests in mind is the only one we can put our wholehearted trust in.
Tomorrow will be exactly the same as any other anxious situations I’ve had to go through. God knows that though my heart is frightful and fast-thumping, I still take every event as a chance to learn to trust in Him more and more. He allows me to go through each and every circumstance knowing that it reminds me of how silly I am to worry so much when honestly, it turns out ok. And even when it doesn’t, God still allows me to see the good in it.
It is no wonder then that my favourite verse and promise from God’s word is Romans 8:28.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Further down in verse 31, it says “If God is for us, who can be against us?” How much more of a reassurance do you need!
If I’m not to exhausted or overwhelmed from work, I promise to write about my first day, if not week, at my new job. Though there’s no way I can know or predict the details, I can safely say that everything will turn out alright because I know God was there with me each step of the way!
I’m casting my cares aside
I’m leaving my past behind
I’m setting my heart and mind on You, Jesus
I’m reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there’s so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good, is good!
Today is the day, you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day, you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won’t worry about tomorrow
I’m trusting in what You say
Today is the day!
~Lincoln Brewster, Today Is The Day
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