God does work in mysterious ways, especially when He wants to teach us a lesson.
Today, I got a lesson on trust.
For those who don’t really know, I am somewhat the perfectionist, which often results in me being the worry-wort.
But today, He showed me how my over-worrying affects not only me, but also others around me because I tend to get so worked-up (over nothing much really) and become petty, sensitive and just a plain pain in the butt.
Sigh.
It was a much needed reminder that I still have yet to learn to totally put my trust in Him. Even when I pray, sadly, I admit I still feel so anxious, almost like there’s doubt and incomplete committment and surrender of my worries to Him who knows what will happen tomorrow.
The song “I Will Boast” by Paul Baloche also touched my heart as I was listening to it on my ipod on the way home.
“Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom
Or the strong man boast in his strength
Let not the rich man boast in his riches
But let the hum-ble come and give thanks
To the One who made us, the One who saved us
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who’s worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who’s worthy, He’s worthy ”
Truly, we as man, sinful man at that, have absolutely nothing worth boasting about. We are merely made from dust and have consistently and stubbornly gone our own way instead of following the will of God.
But because of his loving kindness and grace, we, who are made in his wonderful image (Genesis 1:27), are blessed and given special and individual talents from God. Whatever unique skills we have come not from ourselves or our own ability to do so, but everything is from God.
So who are we to be boastful when God is the real reason behind our special talents?
This brings me back to being a worry-wort -who am I to argue with what God thinks is “very good” (Genesis 1:31)? What more can I in my limited abilities as a human being do to measure up to what my finite human understanding thinks is “perfection”?
Ultimately, it all boils down to the trust I have in God. What I desire to have is not half, not 7/8 but one that is wholehearted and genuine. And with this trust and surrender to God, one can surely be blessed and feel the peace and joy that comes from our Heavenly Father.
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